Throughout my faith journey, I have asked God to show me signs to let me know He is near, as I ask for guidance through my prayers of supplication. What does that mean? It means that I humbly ask God for His help through what I now fondly refer to as Godwinks. Sometimes it is a simple conversation with my creator that says, “Help, Give me a sign”!
I remember the anxiety that I felt when purchasing my first car, a used 1969 Volkswagon beetle bug. I lived in Houston, TX at the time, and had no one there like my dad to give it a good look over. I had saved up $1000.00 of my hard earned money to make this purchase and couldn’t afford to buy a lemon. There were no lemon laws in Houston, TX. So, I went to the seller’s house, an elderly gentlemen, to see his beetle bug. He was from Poland and spoke with a polish accent and I found it difficult to understand him as we conversed. Also, to my dismay I learned that the car was a standard transmission so I would need to learn to drive it as well. The man took me for a ride in the car and showed me the ins and outs of it. It was very plain and in thinking retrospectively probably not the best choice for city driving on the super highways, but I chose it as it would be conservative on gas. I asked the man for a minute and he walked away to give me time and space. I prayed. I was so very nervous about this purchase and asked God to give me a sign. I remember standing there under a big pecan tree in that back yard and looking up could see the sun streaming through the leaves of the tree. While looking at the leaves I could see an image and I remember that It looked like the face of Christ to me and I felt an immense peace come over me. My anxiety was suddenly gone. I will never forget that experience. And so I decided to purchase the car as I negotiated a lower price ( it’s what we New Englanders do) and the elderly gentleman and I finally shook hands. I was young, 19 years old, but the lesson of prayer that my parents instilled in me at a young age has proved to help me find solace in every situation.
Living in Houston was a time of growth. Although I didn’t realize it at the time, I can see now how God used the trials in my life to mold and strengthen my faith. As a young adult I lived superficially worrying about outward appearances and about joining friends at the next happy hour. Yes, we partied in excess! Because of this, I eventually experienced a deep emptiness and a real drought in my spiritual life. On December 31st, (New Year’s Eve) I lost my young 19 year old friend and room-mate Lesa, to a drug overdose. This was a life altering experience for me. To say it woke me up would be an understatement. Following Lesa’s funeral I took a little trip alone to Corpus Christi,TX to sort things out for myself and I remember inviting Jesus back into my life amidst my thoughts. As I stared out at the vast ocean I just knew that He had bigger plans for my life.
But he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 2:9-11
When we relinquish control of our lives to God amazing things happen.
I googled Corpus Christie to learn how it got its ‘name and found this:
In 1519, on the Roman Catholic Feast Day of Corpus Christi, Spanish explorer Alonzo Alvarez de Pineda discovered a lush semi-tropical bay on what is now the southern coast of Texas. The bay, and the city that later sprung up there, took the name of the feast day celebrating the “Body of Christ.”
So I thought it intriguing that Corpus Christi was the place where I gave my heart to Christ
A song played on my livestream today and as I paid attention to the lyrics it gave me a smile and I wanted to share a few of the lines here:
The song “Keep Your Eyes Open”, by: Need to Breathe
Cause if you never leave home, never let go
You’ll never make it to the great unknown
Open up your eyes, keep your eyes open
So tell me you’re strong, tell me you see
I need to hear it, can you promise me
To keep your eyes… Open, my love
So show me your fire, show me your heart
You know I’ll never let you fall apart
If you keep your eyes… Open, my love
Keep your eyes…open
So grateful my God has given me an open heart to receive all that He has for my life. His plans are so much better than mine, I will wait patiently and when He Gives Me A Sign I will give thanks.